22 July 2010, 12:47 am
Excuse the length of this, but plz comment on it and read it.. i think i need help Okay so.... im 16 and i notice TONS of men looking at me. I dont mean to say this conceitedly. Obviously i dont mean EVERY man looks at me. But at least 2 times a day i will catch a man looking at me and i think it is unbeleiveably disturbing. Expecially when the man can have a daughter my age!!! What if they're looking at their daughters that way too! SOOO CREEPY My parents own a few restaurants and i host and bus tables there few days a weeks and it literally distracts me from my job how much men freak me out. I was cleaning a table today and i saw this man literally staring at me while i cleaned the table. I actually stopped and asked someone else to do it for me. Every time i went into the dining room he watched me. This is not the first time something like this has happend. Perhaps he was just watching out of bordem.. having nothing else to watch. I doubt it though. Also, i wil walk down the street with my friends to go to the mall and men old as 40 will honk their horns at us in their cars! THEY HAVE NO SHAME ABOUT IT! Its so disrespectful and it makes me feel uncomfortable constantly. My friends dad is the creepiest... when he looks at me his eyes BULGE out of his head. He will scan me up and down when he thinks i dont notice... i never go to her home anymore, i tell her im allergic to her dog. On New Years he was drunk so i guess he didnt think about looking at me discreetly and every chance he got he would STARE at me. Then this one time i was at her house tanning with her in the backyard. I was wearing a tank top and shorts.... my phobea of him had gotten so bad, i wouldnt put on a bathing suit.... it got the funniest tan lines ever. But at one point he came outside, stood there, and looked at me, i waved and he still just stood there. It was so awkward, i waved again, finally my friend noticed he was behind her and told him to go away. If you have read up to here i thank you for taking the time... but i just have one more example of this bull There is a teacher at school who i have caught follow me in the halls.... stare at me constantly... and he always comes down the hallway where my locker is to get to the office... even though my locker is WAY out of the way..... its creepy Anyway... i think i have a problem and literally think i need to see a therapist about this problem. I constantly think... what if one of these men decided to rape me? Or persue his feelings for that matter. The fact im under age cringes me so much.... i have a hate against pedofiles.. i think they should all be killed I was learning in Phsychology about this murderer named Ed Gein, he would kill his victims and then use their skin as lamp shades, cusion covers, etc I then learned about a man who raped little boys Between the two of them, I considered the rapist to be the one more eligable for the death penalty PEOPLE ARE SO MESSED UP :| Me watching movies like North Country where Charlize Theron is raped by her teacher doesnt help (not sure if i got the right movie and actor... i think i did tthough) Same with movies like the hills have eyes..someone gets raped The special on Oprah where she talked to the rapists bothered me especially if anyone has any ideas as to how i can get my mind off this... or help me in anyway... or even has some sort of comment, please share LOL... i know its a novel... Read More »
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